I can't believe it has been 2 years since we said goodbye to our sweet angel, Annabelle. It seems like it was just yesterday but at the same time, looking back over the two years it seems like it has been an eternity. Today started off with a call from my mom wishing me a good day and prayers to be strong throughout the day. All in all, I actually had a good day. Tiffany and Rylee visited and brought a beautiful flower arrangement for my office. I also received an email from a prospect customer that I have been calling on for more than 6 years that finally told me I got their business! A Step Ahead Adoption Service called to give us a new potential birthmom update too! Then I left work and headed to the cemetery to spend some time in prayer. It felt great to be there and feel the sense of peace that I get when I am there. It is such a beautiful cemetery and in the next month the changing trees will make it even more breath taking. I arrived home to a pink balloon and bow on our tree that I bought Glen for Father's Day last year. Even better, I walked in to two cases of wine that my stepdad had brought back from St.Louis and a dozen pink roses my mom had placed on our kitchen table! I am so grateful for my family and friends that have supported us through this journey we have been on. I can't imagine getting through the bad days without someone there to lean on for support.
Glen and I were talking last night about what we have been through the past two years. We don't go a day without thinking about Annabelle and wishing that she was here with us. We see many two year olds and wonder what Annabelle would be like at two. Along with the loss of our daughter, we have struggled with infertility since then. We never would have imagined we would be where we are right now. God has a funny way of showing you that He is in charge and has other plans for us. We may not know why things happen but I am sure in the future we will look back on this time and see why God has chosen this path for us. We have definitely let go and let God.
Update on the adoption front: we sent our profile book off to two birthmothers this week! One BM is in Kansas and due January 25th with a baby boy, and the other BM is due late October in Oklahoma with a baby boy as well! We welcome all prayers that one of them might choose us.
Glen's mom is coming in town this weekend to visit. We plan to spend time with family, take her to our neighborhood block party and do a lot of good eating!